Alone to See

Isolated and alone, you were able to reach God

Rowlandson, you married and had children, but you had to be alone.

Only alone were you able to see what goes on in-between.

Calling the natives savages, trying to uphold your hate,

trying to continue the separation, your husband would be proud.

But your husband could not be around.

isolated and alone; stuck in-between.

Your soul saw something else.

Your body going hungry with the natives;

You struggled with the natives.

Cold with your dead baby in your hands.

God gave you the opportunity to see

the truth of the warfare that runs darker and deeper than you could imagine.

Your personal experiences could separate you from the rest

if you understood why God placed you there.

To separate you from the ones who use God’s name

to uphold their mask

like Christian cults, that created a mask to separate us more, but in the name of God.

They used christianity to wipe out ancient languages and beliefs;

teachings about what Jesus was truly preaching

They monopolized a religion in Jesus name.

A best-selling narrative written, imprinted into the collective forever.

but do you truly know Christ Consciousness?

The bible was an attempt to explain God’s divine plan. Only an attempt.

Because the dark forces missed the message when they used God’s name to hurt and separate humans from humans.

Christ Consciousness requires you to see beyond skin, colors, and differences.

Christ Consciousness requires that you see with your eyes closed.

Do you know Christ-Consciousness?

Do you know the Truth?

God is Love.


  • William Apess
  • (written by Brianna Barajas)




the Ultimate Truth

In the reading “Narrative of the Captivity and Restoration of Mrs. Mary Rowlandson” by Mary Rowlandson entails her endeavors as a Christian English woman. In a situation similar to a marginal experience of a wife and mother- yet still White. Where roles are reversed because of her misfortune. A white woman held captive by natives who killed off the connection to her family. The war and conflict was real. Defense and honor versus a war for power, land and dignity. This text dates back to the beginning stages of an ongoing conflict of greed and violence. This theme becomes a cycle in the world as we move up in the timeline.

Mary Rowlandson was separated from her husband, children and sister. Her husband was away while the others were with the natives separated with different masters. She tells about her experiences through the Christian lens of faith. The text exposes the beauty of having faith and what faith does to our inner-strength. Her faith was an energy that sent the light out and manifested a generous gift from a native woman. She randomly gifted Rowlandson a Bible. Her verbal exchanges with the natives was minimal but this bible was a gift that became really important. It became her guide as she stated herself. Sacred guidance that affirmed faith, warmth and security. But many people have found themselves in dark spaces; many were innocent just like her. Faith has showed up for others in many ways. Spirit is eternally present, but you have to see it to open it.

Furthermore, exchanges between Rowlandson and her native captors’ highlight that no matter what side you’re on, humanity is directly affected by various evil entities bound to Earth’s third-dimensional reality. These demons on Earth masked by motives of greed, violence, and sickness. Its inhumane. These are karmic cycles that make us all victims of a system that controls us. A system attached to the need for power. Further down the timeline the collapses in reality have begun and continue. Exposure of ignorance and illusions is reaching its peak. Many are awakening to inner growth and recognizing a physical reality cast away from illusions. Alchemy is in the process. This text is an ancient text told from a bias perspective. It reminds us of why we are still in this cycle today. Even while you have the Bible, the bible we have today, removed the Gospel of Thomas that confirms that the soul is eternal and reincarnation is real. Because the same English that colonized the natives, were the same entities that translated the Bible to have things removed so that certain people miss the message.

Our idea of a sacred text like the Bible is masked. Our idea of religion isn’t the Truth. World war three is already here and it’s in the mind.


  • Brianna Barajas



A Poet’s Alchemy

In the play “The Indian Emperor” by poet John Dryden (1631 – 1700) uncovers themes of love versus honor with a relationship between Spanish conquistador Cortez and Aztec Native Cydaria. This relationship is like an unexplainable soul connection that serves as an alchemizing aspect that Dryden focuses on as he retells a piece of history that killed many and transformed the direction of humanity. A story where you can find people are murdered for refusing to convert religion. This is a story retold of a very different, and dangerous time to be alive. Where the poet makes Love a powerful force that drives the main plot.

The fact these lovers never came together in physical union and matrimony, although these lovers were a key component of the overall story proves that love is a powerful force. Love – in this play is a symbol for humanity. While Cortez and Cydaria are lovers from different parties. Lovers who are supposed to be rivals. Their love and attraction towards each other serves as a glitch in the matrix. But Dryden left them in separation to refocus the audience on the bigger picture. The poet didn’t want them together in union because that was not humanity’s fate. Humanity’s fate requires the fall of everything good. Patterns of greed and violence replayed all over the world. The truth is – many were killed. Many are still killed. All over the world. It is the truth of this Earth experience. John Dryden, a poet, knows this. So a poet creates to alchemize. A poet creates to see what he/she could make of something.

Choosing a perspective is like picking a rose in a field of a million red and black roses. As a poet, with creativity gushing through the poet’s vision. Guiding him to channel a love story out of a tragic tale. Greed and violence is a repeated trend in the collective. But here, John Dryden takes greed and violence around a dance of love.

A dance for love.

Love that only remains true in this tale. And because it is written, it lasts forever.

That is a poet’s alchemy.

Wordsworth of the Modern Day: America, 2017

A Modern imitation of Wordsworth’s poem:

Jefferson! Your declaration has turned against you:

America needs your return; She has become the home of political unrest.

Of corrupted shores: rebellion, terrorism, and insanity,

Seaside, the great country of freedom,

Has revoked her own former glory

Of Democracy. We are our own demise;

Please! Rise from the grave, return to life;

And return us to Freedom, Liberty, and Democracy.

Your writings like a guiding sign, and long forgotten:

You once had a voice that lead to our country’s liberation:

Clear as a cloudless sky, open, unyielding,

So did you wish for this fate,

In regretful acceptance; and yet your heart

At the destruction did not sway.

A Beautiful World of Ethereal Places and Ephemereal Wonders

Their colors are distinct as those of the sun and regularly and obviously blended, though less vivid, fine specimens may be found any night at the foot of the upper Yosemite fall, glowing gloriously amid the gloomy shadows and thundering waters, whenever there is plenty of moonlight and spray.

– John Muir

Dear my fellow venerable peers and aspiring scholars, I present to you a plea.

Awaken your slumbering reverence of nature within. This world that we share asks for our appreciation now more than ever. The strength of a movement is determined by the collection of the will of its individuals. Wordsworth intuitively composed his poetry at a time of boiling industrial forthcoming, but do not hesitate to relate its antiquity to the pertinence it has in a world of modern environmental peril. Wordsworth and Coleridge’s Lyrical Ballads is as contemporary to our present problematic endeavors with Earth as you could possibly imagine. Their words continue to speak for a voiceless mother Earth, the most beautiful of all planets we have ever encountered. As students of the University of California, Merced, we are granted an opportunity to embrace a pioneering spirit that has fueled and characterized the United States of America for centuries. Considering our proximity to the greatest wilderness of them all, Yosemite, we are living embodiments of Frederick Jackson Turner’s Frontier Thesis, which spoke to the roaring passion for Western expansion and human inquisitiveness. Go forth and revel within the temples of awful (awe-inspiring) natural wonder, avoid the temptation and distractions of modernity, as they serve no true purpose to your free-spirited soul.

Wordsworth and Coleridge have me lost in a world of beauty and pain. Romanticism speaks to me like a siren-wailing fire truck calls to a lonesome canine to howl incessantly. I’m enamored by this imaginative prose, delicate as a rose, insinuating thoughts of philosophical scorn, like an unforgiving thorn. I have literally and figuratively lost myself in the forests of the Sierra Nevada, blanketed by chilling darkness, but it was then, that I had ever felt more alive. I was young then, and my eyes scrambled in the twilight in fear of black bears. I know now, that these lovable bears in comparison to fearsome grizzlies of the north or population dwindling from receding landscapes of polar bears, are not to be feared. Fresh mountain wind,  towering sequoias revived me from my past loathsome troubles that lay insidious within my mind for so long. The landscapes of this breathtaking mountain range lay etched in my thoughts even with my eyes closed, and are now ingrained in me for the rest of my existence.

The painting “Buttermere Lake: A Shower”, instills moody thoughts in a gloomy overcast. I initially see a bleak landscape of melancholy, that speaks of a desolate past. The rainbow from the painting reminds me of Lower Yosemite Fall’s moonbows. We are within 2 hours of North America’s tallest waterfall. An exciting thought to contemplate itself. I look within these dark clouds of anguish and uncertainty, however, and I find hope. Just as I once lost my wallet and my keys in Yosemite and panicked for my life, I would eventually calm down and see that they were exactly where I had placed, underneath a pile of my belongings. There is always hope even in death and absolute remorse. Even if you cannot see it, there is always light somewhere within or somewhere far beyond the twilight zone. It is only in darkness that light truly shines. Be courageous in the face of overwhelming odds. Fight on until your last dying breath, and submit to no oppressive force. I reference another poem that carries my sentiments. “Do Not Go Gentle Into That Good Night” – Dylan Thomas

Buttermere Lake, with Part of Cromackwater, Cumberland, a Shower exhibited 1798 by Joseph Mallord William Turner 1775-1851

Joseph William Turner’s painting carries multiple aspects of Romanticism within its frame. It is an encapsulation of the feelings and emotions of The Lyrical Ballads. Expostulation and Reply discusses enjoying nature even if its morals and lessons taught are not as direct as a lecture of philosophy or a laboratory session of science.

"You look round on your Mother Earth,
          As if she for no purpose bore you; 
          As if you were her first-born birth,
          And none had lived before you!"

William is expostulated by Matthew. Why does he seem to mindless observe the world with his mind adrift in solitary rumination?

"Nor less I deem that there are Powers
          Which of themselves our minds impress;
          That we can feed this mind of ours
          In a wise passiveness.

William explains his penchant for wonderful Mother Earth. He feels that he assimilates notions of patience and lessons of wisdom in the stillness of meditation and deep contemplation.

Landscapes like the one Turner paints and the ones that you can come across after hiking to a viewpoint are so powerful, that you can’t help but lay speechless. I recall the times I’ve been such amazing views like Glacier Point and Angel’s Landing, and I sat startled and comforted by the immense grandeur for hours.

I make one last reference to another one of Wordsworth’s poems. I ask that you consider your lifestyle and your attachments to materials, just like Wordsworth attempts to convey the contempt of materialism. A life is meant to be fulfilled with experience, and not meaningless objects.

The world is too much with us; late and soon,
Getting and spending, we lay waste our powers

The World is Too Much With Us

William Wordsworth

Earth day is on April 22. Also, National Park Week is April 15-23. On April 15 and 16 and again on April 22 and 23 you can visit any national park in the country free of charge. As the heavy snowfall from this year’s dramatic winter begins to recede in the Sierra Nevada, I encourage you to take part in experiencing our world within its raw natural boundaries, rather than dwelling within unsatisfying cities. The following link is a website that has been instrumental in my transition from childhood to young adulthood. It has guided me with a knowledgeable content of incredible hikes in Yosemite and also carries a comedic and informative style of prose. Check it out!

One last note. Last winter I explored Zion National Park, and after embarking on a notoriously scary but enjoyable hike, I found a drone sitting atop Angel’s Landing. Flying drones are strictly prohibited in these National Parks, and I felt obligated to find the owner before a ranger confiscated it. I’ve been looking for the owner ever since. After a considerable amount of time debating with myself internally over ethical matters, I decided to examine the footage of nature. I was absolutely blown away, and I feel compelled to share. I hope that everyone has the desire to embark on their own expeditions. I recommend the HD setting for enhanced theatrics.



Thomas Pham

Not just a language, but a state of mind

The status of the English language has changed drastically since the time of Samuel John’s Dictionary (1755) to Macaulay’s and Ray’s call for English language education in India in the sense that the English language now is no longer just a language, but a ‘state of mind’. The English language at first was sloppy, but through time it became the language of the Western hemisphere and of development.

The English language plays a vital role in American and British identity. Although, the American accent sounds very different from a British accent, the colonists may have changed the English language to distinguish it from the British, but they also kept it as a reminder of something to strive for. The English language is what gave America a culture of democracy, freedom, and liberty that they had not had before.

In class (3/3/2017), we discussed a thesis about Johnson, Macaulay, and Ray and how it can be improvised. The example thesis stated that Johnson, Macaulay, and Ray considered the English language as an imperialist language which is a language that would rule other cultures. This not a bad idea, but there’s more to that. English has evolved so much that it is no longer just a language, but a ‘state of mind’. When the British colonists invaded other lands they didn’t just leave behind their language, but culture and ideas. They left their trademark, and this trademark brought forth ideas into developing nations. The English language also helped the British because now they had some common ground with the natives. For instance, India has elections and is far more democratic than its neighboring Arab nations that use Arab as the official language yet are far less democratic and less developed. Another example, is Canada and the U.S. are leaders of the free world, and both were territories of Britain whereas Mexico belonged to Spain. Spain took from Mexico yet never gave them nothing in return whereas Britain gave the U.S. ideas and enlightenment.

-Benjamin Montes

Genocide in America

Mary Rowland’s life story goes to show the intolerance and genocide of America. It was not until her family was at stake that she realized the wrong in genocide. If that had not happened to her family would she have come to realize this? This shows how colonizers did not care about the mass murders they were doing or the territory they were invading until it became personal to them. This is basically a history of America, no one cares about the harm they cause until it comes back to them.

John Locke would not have agreed with the occurrences in Mary Rowland’s captivity narrative because he believed “all men may be held back from invading the rights of others and from harming one another, and so that the law of nature that aims at the peace and preservation of all mankind may be obeyed.”

-Natalia Alvarado

War, Slavery and Genocide Is A Necessary Evil

Mary Rowlandson’s life story and experiences with Native Americans confirms the history of intolerance and genocide central to the English colonization of eastern North America. John Locke thought that slavery was an outcome from war, but Locke still felt that all men ought to be free, regardless of the outcome of a war. Locke felt that the only way a person can be a slave is through his own will. However, if that was the case then there would be no slaves. But what is interesting about John Locke is tht when he was discussing basic human rights such as freedom and liberty, ‘free men’ were considered to be only white men since that was all John Locke knew. John Locke’s only meant for the ‘free men’ to apply only to white men because that was all he knew. Therefore, his arguments for slavery are weak, and many think that he is either for it or against it or just a hypocrite. However, I feel that Locke understood that slavery was a part of life, and those who were superior would control the weak.

No human wants to be born a slave, or give up his divine human rights to his conquerors. However, this is a price people have to pay. I don’t condone slavery and war, but I understand that it is as natural part of human civilization. Today, slavery is still going on and I don’t see any outrage? How do you think technology (cellphones and laptops), food (farming and labor), and resources are produced. Third world countries are in slaved so that Western countries can triumph. John Locke believed that in order to secure some freedoms, we also have to give some up. Therefore, if we want capitalism and productivity to flow someone has to be a slave, and someone has to be manipulated. It’s a cruel world, but it has to happen.

During class many students were taken back when asked a question regarding Rowlandson and her children? A majority felt that Rowlandson was in the right because she was a mother, and the natives were in the wrong because the idea that anybody could harm a mother and her children is cold-hearted. However, if killing children is so cold hearted why didn’t the colonists say to themselves, “hey maybe we should stop expanding and settle with what we have built rather than continuing our destruction, and maybe that will stop these atrocities from happening”. The reason that the colonists didn’t feel anything for Rowlandson’s pain is because they also understood that price of war and genocide. The colonists also understood that as evil as the idea of children dying at the hands of savages was, it was a small price to pay for conquest of North America.

-Benjamin Montes

Mary Rowlandson: a hollywood superstar

The reason that the recurring theme of our literature thus far has been of “mass killing, pillaging, and conquest of indigenous peoples,” is because this is the history of our nation. Albeit, not the one the education system wants us to know, but our history nonetheless. Surely, it causes some to react—the way literature does—as it creates this uncomfortable verbal battlefield with justifications for genocides and heavy worded disagreements against it. However, this is essential for educating one another; I look at Mary Rowlandson’s didactic narrative as a way to educate those unable to sympathize for the indigenous people (choosing to ignore the clearly overarching racist tones).

Perhaps through Mary’s narration of her captivity, the people unable to relate to the mass murdering of the indigenous populace, can finally accept the disgusting truth (or sentiment at least) of this nation’s past. By writing about her captivity, she gives insight to the horrors and savagery of the events occurring in a genocide. It’s through her that the caucasian (with eurocentric tendencies) can relate to; one person, that is, that they can envision through the first-person narrative, the true terror of an invasion. One person’s viewpoint (first-person) vs. a mass populace viewpoint (those wiped out due to colonialism: voiceless). Sounding familiar? Mary serves as the “pleasant familiar face” in this text, in the same way that Hollywood uses a white familiar, friendly face. The message is being conveyed still, that genocide is bad, but how would an elitist, white-european feel when watching a screen above them filled with indigenous people? Nothing appeals to them, at least in the simplest sense of familiarity.


–Just an empty thought on how Mary’s narrative compares to cinema, I’ll return to it on Friday–


Daniel Lizaola Loepz

Divide of classes; dividing love

In John Dryden’s “The Indian Emperour, or the Conquest of Mexico,” is the precursor to the repetitious cycle of division of classes, and inability to embark on relationships based on a difference of ethnicity, nationality, race, and specifically religion.  Dryden, essentially, captures the Romeo and Juliet-esque tragic love story that is occurring amidst the two empires -that of the Aztecs and the imperialists.  In imagining what this theatrical portrayal must have been like for the onlookers, it can be concluded that although many spectators where there for social status purposes, some must have been able to have taken some sort of introspective experience from the play.

In addition, the twist is that Dryden’s attempt at exposing such a political and nationalistic divide, should have resonated even louder within the confines of that theater.  The theater, consisting of a diversity that has been broken up into categories, literally based on their seating.

The whole spectacle rings true still today.  There are publishers of every sort: singers, poets, songwriters, bloggers, playwrights, filmmakers and directors, attempting to raise an awareness towards an important social issue.  For example, social media outlets of today, whether it be the news, or facebook, or twitter, carries a plethora of information intended to show us the breakdown that is occurring within the nationalistic part of our society.  The lack of solidarity, and unity is similar to what Dryden’s point of view is.  We have seen footage after footage, of people yelling others for speaking a language other than English, thus exposing the xenophobia that many feel.

Dryden’s work is a work of modernity, campaigning for the notion to rid of old ways and ideals that only seem to stifle the growth of a nation.  Similarly, that is the case with today.  Ironically, we seem to be going backwards.  Love and the ability to combine beliefes does not seem to be the resolution at the moment.

-Maricela Martinez